I don't know. My dad and I both have damaged intracostal muscle (i.e. between ribs muscles). He is not hurt by it. It hurts, but he is not hurt by it. I am. He is stronger than me because he has been through fatherhood. I have not. Both the parents like, really let it out when injured. I don't. I keep it in. So it fucking hurts.

I did some DM prep tonight. I'd like to play DnD with mom again. That was the last and first time I've had like, serene fun, in years.

It's funny what a downer physical pain can be.

I don't eat enough. I don't understand how I expect my body to heal without proper nutrition.

I'm just a total piece of shitfor brains.

Life is pain and suffering. I am not strong.